“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.”
When I first met the father of my children, one of the first conversations we had involved him asking me what my biggest fear was. I remember it so clearly, as soon as the question was before me, my heart started racing and my first instinct was to lie to him simply because I felt he wouldn’t understand. I myself didn’t understand. How could I fear something that I assumed in my mind that many people aspired to. I was running away from something that I felt every sane person would be running towards. I built up the strength and blurted it out. ‘My biggest fear is greatness.’ I waited anxiously, anticipating that he would reply by saying, oh, that’s a bit stupid. Much to my relief he didn’t, however he was shocked at what I had identified as my biggest fear.
The truth of the matter is that many of us are afraid of our own greatness. How many times have you had an incredible idea or desire to do something extraordinary, then quickly found a reason not to, whether that reason was attached to some character flaw that you attributed to yourself or whether you found yourself quickly squirming back into a comfort zone that hindered any opportunity for you to become greater. Many of us are unaware of this debilitating self-sabotaging fear that exists within us, however it is there and until we confront it head on it will continue to hold us back each and every day of our lives.
The fear of greatness will tell you that you are not good enough, that whatever it is that you are aspiring to do or become would be better suited for somebody else. It tells you that you are unworthy, unqualified, and that you are perfectly fine just where you are. Your desires and dreams remain exactly that, merely wishes with no hope of ever becoming a reality.
This reminds me of the story of a young boy named Jeremiah who almost missed his destiny because of this fear of greatness. When receiving a call from God to be a prophet, he replied, Lord I do not know how to speak; I am too young. By grace he took a leap of faith despite what the ego was telling him and became known as one of the great prophets.
We are designed for greatness, it is in our DNA. We are the children of God, how can we not be great? The ego however does everything in its power to confuse us, producing fear, doubt and competition, contradicting everything that is true. The problem is we have forgotten who we actually are, whose we are, where we come from and this dose of amnesia has given the ego power over the stories of our lives. It has given the ego power over who we are today and who we will become tomorrow.
It is in us however to be able to take that power back. To make a conscious decision to take one step each and every day towards our own personal greatness. Every time I pull out my laptop and start writing, I take a step into my greatness. Every time I relay my past to someone with the view of helping them out of a particular situation, I take a step into my greatness. Every time I stand in front of a congregation and teach, I take a step into my greatness.
It’s time to break the hold that fear has over your life. It’s time to stop being apologetic about who you truly are. Its time you stepped into your greatness.